Monday, November 14, 2011
Last blogged @ 3:16 AM

What my life would be , holding you close to me . Will I ever see , you smiling back at me . If i rlly let go.
Sometimes, i rlly hope that i could make many u-turns back to before and stop everything. stop myself from loving him, stop myself from going further, stop myself from being rebellious, stop those lies ive made.
This is jus life, no u-turns. i jus got to move and move. Thn i told myself, to let go, to give up arnd 2 mths ago. i still cant and i cant figure out why. until today, th reason behind is i still love him deeply. like i mentioned before, i know its impossible, i know even if its possible its gonna be hard. i've nbr felt so depress so stressed up, so hurtful for a guy. he is th only one making me feel like this, making me couldn let go.
Sometimes i rlly want to know, whats is he up to next? he is fine? and th very impt one is he attached? or is he planning to be attached? sometimes curiosity make me so uneasy. i know myself, i've lost him. idk how to voice out to even ask sometimes. even if i do rlly voice out, does it works?
Its not uncertain feelings, its love. because its always in my heart. idw to be like a fool tearing for you. how can i stop? its hurting me alot. i rlly miss him.
Lots of friends arnd me, asking me not to be stupid over him, sad to say, yes im jus that silly. who isn silly whn it comes to love? go one step see one step lo. im not gonna let go so easily. bcos its hard to find one like him(: I'm willing to wait even if he is not willing to love.♥